A couple of weeks after my last drinking, I walked into the Kuressaare City Church and I felt with all my heart, soul and spirit – (this is) where the secret of life is, the Beginning and the End; God, here You are and here am I and that's where I want to stay!

Every time after attending (that) church service I felt overwhelming joy and contentment. None of life's pleasures had ever been able to give me that kind of feeling as the relationship with God did. Every time I had questions about certain things, the next service I got answers to them – it strengthened my faith because only God knew my questions. My eyes were opened, I found reality and realised that there is someone who always hears and wants to help me, and He never wants to leave me. That “knowing” was affirmed by the concrete answers to my prayers.

My mum couldn't recognise me at home any more – she would look at me with a questioning look (wondering) was it really me. I just wanted to tell her that, “Yes, it is me, the real Tiidrek now.”

As a believer I realised that the inner voice that had often spoken to me when I was still a crook had been the voice of God's Spirit. The Bible says that if you believe in your heart and confess with your mouth, you will be saved. That means if you believe in God with all your heart and dare to say it out (loud), then God will take you in and take care of you. I did that in April, 2003, and my life changed completely! I consider that moment to be the beginning of my new life.

The fact that I believe in God and His helping hand has given me everything: peace, joy, loving heart and everything that we need for peace and joy today: money, shelter, food, clothes, security for the future.

I know that wherever I go there is my God. I simply talk to Him so He can help me; I read His Word to know His will. I go to church where I have my brothers and sisters – compared to the “friends” of my old life, I feel their support always and in everything.